31 gifts

I have decided I want to host a 31 Gifts party. Here is a link to a catalog. Please shoot me a message to let me know if you are interested in "attending" I am hoping to get about 5 people committed to attending before I book the party. It will be an online/catalog party so no need to live near me!!

31 has so many cute items. I want to buy one of each!

Cheap Similac

If you use similac then you will want to get in on this deal and FAST! Currently you can get 48 of the 2 oz bottles of similac advance, and 2 of the quart RTF for $25! Just go to Abbot Nutrition and order the 48 two oz bottles. It is $41.xx and it takes $50 to get free shipping. I added 2 of the 1 quart bottles of RTF at $5.99 each. This brought my total to $53.92. Use coupon code LUTEIN (expires 3.31.11) to take off $28.85! This brought my total down to $25.07 on the formula we use for Princess!!

Cheap Kaspersky after coupon and rebate

Do you need a new Anti-Virus program? Then check out Kaspersky lab Anti-Virus. You can get it for $59.99 at Newegg.com. Use promo code KAV3U10 (expires 3.27.11) to save $10.00. Your new total will be $49.99. Then submit this $40 rebate (expires 3.27.11) to bring your total down to $10 for an Anti-Virus program for 3 users!!

Swagbucks

Have you heard about Swagbucks? If you have not, you should check it out! What is is? It is a website that give you "swagbucks" or digital dollars for doing things you already do online! These include, but are not limited to:

Searching the web
doing surveys
shopping
polls
watching videos

They also release codes every so often that you can enter to redeem more swagbucks! Fridays are Mega Swagbucks days and you can earn high value bucks for searching. And once you sign up, get your friends to sign up under you...you will receive the first 1000 swagbucks they earn from searching, which is enough for 2 $5 amazon giftcards!

What do you do with swagbucks? You turn around and shop with them of course. They have a variety of items that you can turn your swagbucks in for, but my favorite are giftcards. They have several but the ones that I enjoy are...

Amazon
Starbucks *can you say free coffee*
Barnes and Noble
and many others

And if giftcards are not your thing, you can cash out for money deposited into your paypal account!

So what are you waiting for? Make the most of the time you spend onlline anyway and get started now!

UPDATE

I am kind of back. So much has been happening. The short of it is I will be in TX in just a few days. I am at a hotel right now, but will be able to post more once I get settled in. So stay tuned!

Bucket List

I
 have decided to create my own bucket list of things I want to do. I realize that it will help me dream...

1. Get an Associates degree
2. Get a Bachelors degree
3. Go on a cruise
4. Go to Ireland
5. visit every state
6. See Sugarland in concert
7.  Get a tattoo for Porkchop
8. Get a tattoo for Princess
9.  Go to Italy
10. Go to Disneyland
11. Go to Disneyworld
12. Get a bartending liscense
13. Go to Vegas
14. Become certified to perform weddings
15. learn how to wear make up
16. Lose 45 lbs
17. Become a 31 consultant
18. Host a $1000 party
19. Run in a 5K
20. Sing karaoke (I am painfully shy so this will be hard for me)

I plan on keeping this list updated. I will also be adding more when I have a little bit of time.

Acceptance

I have accepted the divorce. I dont like it but I am ready to move on. I NEED to move on. I have a bunch of plans for my future and I am excited to see what I can accomplish on my own. I have my kids every day and they are what are pushing me through. Their father and I are working on being friends, but it is going to take a lot of work, especially for the remainder of this deployment. There needs to be better communicating on both our parts, but I know he thinks its just my part. Acceptance is also a big one we need to work on. I need to accept that he no longer loves me and he needs to accept my diagnosis of MDD and understand when I break down over little things.

Here is to better things for me...

CMV

1 in 150 babies born in the US have CMV. Contracted by the mother from an infected person, CMV is then passed onto the unborn child. CMV can come from a runny nose or changing the diaper of a child carrying the virus. Liam's mom Polly is certain that she contracted CMV during a playgroup while pregnant. CMV presents as a common cold, making it difficult to detect. Children born with CMV can have complications from Blindness,mental disabilty, Deafness, Cerebral Palsy, and even death. Liam has been diagnosed with a form of Cerebral Palsy and is Deaf, he also displays chacteristics similar to autism. He walks with the help of a walker and is learning to communicate with the use of an Ipad at school. Isn't technology grand?! Last week Liam was sick. Imagine having a sick child who can not communicate with you, how do you know what hurts? It is my goal, along with an amazing group of women; to raise enough money to purchase Liam an Ipad to use at home for communication.

Ashley at Beautiful Bowtique has agreed to host a fundraiser in March (details will follow soon).

So far we have raised almost $100, this in less than a week! Donations can be sent via paypal to (comment with your email if you would like to help this sweet little boy out)

Please pass on the word for me and for Liam! 

Here are two links to articles about little liam and his prognosis:

http://www.stopcmv.com/stories/liam.php

http://www.dailypress.com/health/dp-nws-cmvboy-20100816,0,2188936.story

Lost

I feel so lost lately. I do not know where to go. I feel like I am lost in some dark woods, no matter where I turn, it all looks the same. Im so tired of people saying they care, when they really do not. Im so tired of pretending Im alright, when Im not. It takes everything I have to get out of bed lately. All I want to do is sleep...

Some quotes that fit me perfectly right now...

I love sleep. My life has this tendency to fall apart when I'm awake.


It seems to me that the harder I try the harder I fall.


What do you do when you become too scared, too scared to live, too scared to die, too scared to love, too scared to even care?

Drama

It seems to be everywhere lately. People IRL are flaking out on me. People online have turned into horrible people. They must hate themselves if their life revolves around making other lives miserable. I considered so many people my friends. I guess I was wrong for trusting. I think I am going to take a break from posting. It breaks my heart to say this but the drama has got to me. I do not feel safe posting anywhere.