Friday, January 21, 2011


I just got done talking to the Ex about birthday parties. He said he would try to come if I let him. Told him yeah because I want the kids to have him. Told him that I didnt want HER to come. He tried to tell me that he would need help on the road, and that I was going to have to accept her since she was a part of his life now. Will I ever see her as someone other than the woman my husband cheated on me with? I do not want her at my kids parties. But I also know that she may be around for awhile. I really hope that she breaks his heart and walks away as soon as they return stateside. I would have an easier time with him dating anyone but that W***E.

I live my life through Music

Saturday, January 15, 2011

I decided

This weekend has been very hard for me. I think I was secretly hoping that the Ex and I could make it work. But today I realized that while I love him, it could never work. I would always be waiting for the next affair, for him to request divorce. I need to be in a relationship where there is trust. And as of now there is none left in ours. I hope one day we can be friends for the sake of our kids, after I am done hating him that is. I don't think I will ever stop loving him, but I know over time that love will change from lover to father of my children.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

How I feel


Why is it that I always set myself up for failure? I feel like the world is crashing in around me and all I want to do is sit in the ruins and cry. When am I going to catch a break? Im almost to the point of finding a map, closing my eyes and picking a spot. Then packing up the kids and moving there without telling anyone.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

What next?

How in the world am I supposed to pack or do any cleaning with my kids around? I was doing dishes and Porkchop comes into the kitchen with lotion on his head. Which lately isnt an unusual thing to happen. I go throw him in the tub and get Diva in as well. Go about my business, then decided to go to the bathroom. Walk into mine to discover that the lotion they got into was $100's worth of Mary Kay product. As well as ALL my B&BW hand sanitizer. Squirted out all over the floor. Guess it is a good thing I planned on cleaning that bathroom today anyway.

Amazon giveaway

I used to pick the winner of the Amazon $5 giftcard. The winner is...

Lucky #1!

Congrats Megan.

You will have 24 hours to get a hold of me so I can give you the code. If I do not hear from you I will pick someone else.

When it Rains it Pours

I had every intention of packing me and the kids up and moving cross country with them. Until I found my Power of Attorney the Ex left. I do not have the ability to clear our military housing. Which now means he can dick me around and make me stay. Yeah I could still pack up and go, but then I could not afford rent. All the BAH would be going to an empty house, instead of giving me $1275 to cover a place for me. How much can go wrong before something goes right?

Friday, January 7, 2011

Green Toys

Are you a fan of Green Toys? Then you will want to check out Right now you can get a $50 certificate to for $25! My favorite deal right now is the Recycle Truck, Fire Truck, and Dump Truck. These are currently on sale for $22.50 from $25.00. While this is not that big of a price cut it works great for you! Buy 2 of the trucks and your total will be $45.00. Use your certificate from FamilyFinds to get both for $25.00! Or $12.50 each! This is a great deal on some eco friendly toys. It may even be cheaper if you have credits from the Starbucks deal a few days ago.

NOTE: You will need to pay Shipping (was $8.95 for me) unless you have $50 AFTER the certificate code. However, you may be able to use the $5 left over on your certificate towards shipping.

 If you don't know what they are, they are toys that are made out of recycled materials. The packaging they come in is recycled as well! Porkchop got the dump truck for Christmas and it is very sturdy and he loves playing with it!


Because I want to be cool like Jess! J/K...maybe. I decided I would do a 24 hour giveaway. I have a $5 Amazon GC I am offering up. At 2 PM CST tomorrow I will randomly select a winner and post the winner's name. You have 24 hours to get in touch with me so that I can email you the code.

1. Follow my blog
2. Post a comment letting me know you follow. Please put your SN

See how easy that is?? Good luck! And if no one enters Im keeping it myself haha!!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

It's just the beginning

Today has been really hard. I look at my house and my kids and I feel like my world is spinning out of control. If I could have, I would have stayed in bed all day. I knew that there were going to be hard days, its to be expected, but I didn't realize it would be like a smack in the face. Nothing I do is right for anybody. I have "friends" who say they are here for me but they never call or answer when I call them. I know that I have my kids so Im not alone, but Im tired of people telling me that. There is only so many days you can go where your only conversation is getting after a 4 year old to clean her room. I need adult conversation. And honestly I think I need to have a vacation. Just get away from it all. But, unfortunately I can't. I have no one to watch the kids, the dog, cat and fish. So tonight will just be like any other, me and my memories of a man who can't love me.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Right Now

I really should be cleaning the house and packing. Instead I am laying on the couch with Pumpkin while Diva and Porkchop play in her room. It is nice and quiet and I am going to enjoy it. I am going to ignore the laundry (Not hard to do since my dryer broke), and stare at the ceiling fan in amazement with Pumpkin. Wait, did I say it was quiet? Crap...better go see what the older 2 are destroying...

Who am I?

You may be wondering who I am.

My name is Crystal. I am a 23 year old soon to be single mother of 3. I love to coupon (Hey, its not just for old ladies!), love rocking out to country music, hate cleaning, love to read. I also recently discovered that I am in love with tattoos and piercings.

My kids are Diva (4), Porkchop (15 months), and Pumpkin (3 months). Diva is my sassy little smart ass. No matter what you say, she has a comeback for it. Porkchop is my little piggy. He loves to eat and recently discovered he likes his hair brushed. Pumpkin is my little princess. She is very petite. She loves to smile at any man who looks at her haha.

I am in the process of moving to Texas. I decided that I can not stay in my house here any longer, I need a fresh start. I am excited to see where life takes my kids and I. When I first found out the my husband wanted a divorce I thought my life was over. Little did I know it was just beginning.

So join me on my journey from housewife to single, working mom. I promise that there will be laughter, and tears, joys and sorrows...and maybe a little vodka!