I decided

This weekend has been very hard for me. I think I was secretly hoping that the Ex and I could make it work. But today I realized that while I love him, it could never work. I would always be waiting for the next affair, for him to request divorce. I need to be in a relationship where there is trust. And as of now there is none left in ours. I hope one day we can be friends for the sake of our kids, after I am done hating him that is. I don't think I will ever stop loving him, but I know over time that love will change from lover to father of my children.